Concrete Dreams

Concrete Dreams

Thinking the unforgiving art
A lost profession a wandering heart
You lay in wait to hallow me
A soul wishing non the less to be present and free

I stager through these water halls
Raindrops breathing endlessly they fall
These words bleed true
It soothes the eyes and blindness it removes

Mindless I remove
Please take this heart these hands
Break it’s patterns
I give my life to your standards
Your glory is all that matters

-AJ

Bridges Final draft

Bridges

Soft it came to welcome me
Hard you came to soften me
The shimmer from the northern moon
You’ll be shining still like glistening soon
The hum of 4 wheels on a snow covered mountain road

A step closer and there will be nothing left
Moving through the trees silence covers my ears
Unplugged I interact we move
Unplugged from the lies of something better
We are lost conditioned to be wanting more
Nothing is good enough for most things in this world
The fog moves in to overtake the ridge
I move past the glare claiming space for my soul

A hand made comment as quant as this day
The rushing of the wind past your face
I will bring confusion to this place
But he will bring resalution to this space

Bridging gaps that where ounce made
Burned bridges being rebuilt
So I can stand at the other end
Just to stare across my friend
Just to wait across

The peaks wait for the gracing of our presence
The grace comes from the present
We are found in the present tense
Receiving love for no reason and it never cost us a cent

-AJ

Bridges

Soft it came to welcome me
Hard you came to soften me
The shimmer from the northern moon
You’ll be shining still like glistening soon
The hum of 4 wheels on a snow covered mountain road

A step closer and there will be nothing left
Moving through the trees silence covers my ears
Unplugged I interact we move
Unplugged from the lies of something better
We are lost conditioned to be wanting more
Nothing is good enough for most things in this world
The fog moves in to overtake the ridge
I move past the glare claiming space for my soul

A hand made comment as quant as this day
The rushing of the wind past your face
I will bring confusion to this place
But he will bring resalution to this space

Bridging gaps that where ounce made
Burned bridges being rebuilt
So I can stand at the other end
Just to stare across my friend
Just to wait across

-Aaron Johnson

spoken

An arrival of a newborn feeling
Streaming from the very depths of my soul alive and breathing
Somehow after all it’s seen there is still something left
Something there untouched unscathed at last
And now a chance to finish off what’s left
Or to start a long obedience abandoning this flesh ship
Ive been letting the wind direct my sails for too long
Sitting back realizing something that has come and gone
My biggest weakness will become my biggest strength in time
Abandon weakness, eternity the only way to whats yours is mine
Whats worth this soul and whats not worth it in this life.

-AJ

Sandwiches…

Dug this one out of the old writing attic, It's always a trip to re live the stuff you write and remember where you where at and where your life is now because of these different hapening's in life, So here is to a Year away from it all and being where I am... They say if you can't do, teach, if you can't teach, then well everything you live and experience you where meant to write it into a poem...:)



I never knew how much I cared
Until I let myself realize it’s you I might have failed
The sun rose just right
Each raindrop that fell that night
It took with it the tears, dirt and pain
He held me tight ounce again in my shame
To remind me of his love and how it’s unfailingly sustained
If something has changed
Please set me free
Tell me I’m not it, and ill let it be
I have this warrior’s disposition
It guided me immediately when I saw you, it was my intuition
Each moment I’m gifted with your words your presence has confirmed my position
And it’s not letting me let go
I fight my logic and what I think I know
Reading into your lack of actions back, maybe a little to much
I’m investing with no return your heart seems out of reach out of touch
I know it’s my entire fault
It’s all my actions against all my doubt
Why can’t I live in time?
Let it tick by and speaks it’s mind
I shouldn’t assume either way
What it is your heart has to say
I can only believe in a man who has both of us on his mind
I think he loves us more than we can imagine and we will ever find
I just want the best for you
If it’s leaving be and letting go it’s what I’ll do
Wherever you go I know
If it’s happiness you’ll find it will sooth my soul
Knowing you’re happy in the life you chose as it unfolds
I’m just writing to unfold
It’s better to be real and risk rejection i'm told
It’s love and affection we hold
Waiting to give it away, if you’re not ready yet, or im too bold
I’ll bring myself to understand and let you go
I’m fighting an enemy planting thoughts in my mind
And all I want right now is to be ok with giving it time
In hopes of you finding no reason or rhyme
Not to trust me, or begin to share your struggles your strife
As we work towards a kingdom centered life
Exploring weather we could make it work because it just might
Yeah it just might.

-Aaron Johnson

City Coffee Rags and Toffee

The lingering thoughts of running shoes
Snow flurries, broken shells, exotic fruits
We never died just never had a chance to bloom

The Sun and the sky out my window couldn't tell me right now
I missed their beauty, sitting their thought highway bound
I wonder of all the things to come
I remember the past and where it all came from

The simple slicing of an orange
The simple packing up and storing
It feels boring without you my friend
It feels though, keeping it together like a book end

Yeah I never knew ya for long
Just over half a year gone
It’s amazing what a glimpse at a hearts desire can do
Folding you up and then unfolding you

You make me want to spend time just to spend it
Hit rewind and do it again just because of this
Here I am again compelled to write
Thinking of a laugh, a smile so bright

And here I write but there are no words I could say
To explain or pull myself away from these thoughts
I ought to be taught a lesson on forgetting and letting go
But I’ve been running for far to long
Under raindrops that o familiar song

This is so literal terms
Literal imagery and words
They’re all I have to express my duress
For quitting giving up on this
But have I really given up on this

I would just spend time because it works
Because I enjoy every word falling from your lips
It makes sense to make time for it
I’ve never felt peace with someone like this

They say it takes a little more time
More than it would take me or to make this rhyme
But I couldn't help seeing and realizing it in just one rhyme
With these last written words I retreat into the street blue sky and sunshine
And find myself next to a man on a corner street helping him beg for a dime
Something so simple easy to obtain, the basics of spending time
he gives his opinion at first with a sarcastic laugh and smile, just to have him read it I'm flattered
and I'm not sure weather it sucks or not but it doesn't matter
and we return to our task of begging for dimes after we laugh for a while
all of this worth it I guess in it's distance an miles
Just for our laugh and a smile
and so in that moment I realize
The battle in my life is against my Joy
and so I see my God is here to let me know he's here to take me on this journey
to make sure I'm reminded again of this real story...

we search for joy in all these things, relationships, workouts, goals, mountains, jobs, experiences, stuff and forget to go after it by seeking it, asking for Joy, talking about Joy, with the only one that can actually give us Joy. and that Is Jesus... it's not that all those things are bad or wrong to seek at all but when we seek joy from God rather than those things, those things are just enriched and we can pour it out as we do them or experience them, and share in them, and show that Joy off to everyone around us as we live life content first and only In Jesus.....

Aaron Johnson

If I had Eyes

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
Always looking out

Lot of people spend their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You got hungry eyes that just can't look forward
Can't give them enough but we just can't start over
Building with bent nails we're
falling but holding, I don't wanna take up anymore of your time
Time time time



-Jack Johnson

Brilliant...

FiftySixPointFour

We fade into the things we wish we saw
This is no gamble it’s no draw
So you run on along side perpetual sin
He calls your name you invite him in
A cup of tea, a bottle of wine with no end in site
I hold my cards and wait for a time that’s right
We lay them down with hopes and dreams
They reveal our truth not what it seems
Is it really a perpetual sin
to dream a new to let love in
a programmed reaction
to share in pain, joy and satisfaction
is it meant to be a distraction
what makes a man I think I know
says the man on the radio
I see my time leaving
I’m left in silence alone and breathing
To take on these metal plates and pavement
I used to do these things for them
Not for me but for the angles to come
To lift above my head my life my son
Doing right what my parents did wrong
My true occupation my real passion
A man of example, the friend of a king, a leader of men
That is my calling that is how I hope to make my end

-Aaron Johnson

And Now

And now I run
Through the night and into the sun
Through the snow and through the rain
Through the joy and through the pain

All I’ve learned is nothing
Certain uncertainty of something
I shook the tree for the apple of my eye and gave it all away
We Deny it all avoiding the places we might meet in the day

Little birds in our lives they make there nests
Loaded guns to our heads
Left confused with words of like and care
Left with this the truth I was unaware

This life is full of choice
But you never know God could use neon signs
And he uses that soft voice
Through others often not a familiar noise

And now I run
Through the night and into the sun
Through the snow and through rain
Through the joy and through the pain

I’ll make my way
Letting go to be what may
Each running step a word I pray
I hope there was something there I hope it stays
Sometimes you have to let something go
To see if something was really there

-Aaron Johnson

The Sun

Clear mind, Clear day
it doesn’t even explain
why do I use words
if I could write in feelings instead of verbs
I would
There is something in the air
It’s recognized not a feeling that’s rare
A million people to the door
Yet still a lonely store
We sell ourselves too short for far too much more
More than most are willing to pay
We get measured, critiqued, and weighed
Only to find we are still alone
We phone around we phone home
But it’s not home
It’s still out there somewhere all alone
Waiting, found waiting just the same
Little do we all know home has a name

-Aaron Johnson

Solitude

This ridge I walk
Seeking it’s majesty to stand atop
My Creator smiling as I indulge in what he hand crafted and created
Like a father smiling as his child opens the gift he gave him
The gifts he wishes to give to me
Everything I have in this life is a gift and it’s free
I'm not measured by what I do and what I can achieve
How could this not be something I realized in my heart
Long ago from the beginning from the start
I couldn’t do a thing to deserve what he has in store for me
So all I can do is be still and wait on you
You are the silence in the noise
And in the silence you are the voice
To carry me home to the kingdom of heaven
The state of my heart not a place we go to in the end
I reach back as you extend your hand
Lord you are my compass my guide my friend.
You made me ferocious protective and wild
You humble me like a child
You give me what I need and what it takes
The stakes are high and I accept your invitation
And now we move forward together

-AJ

Words

Too many Joy's, New opportunities for life at the same time as anxious uncertainties unfold

This is the part of my story where I run out of words....


AJ

Vermillion

You can't know the end or outcome
we take a risk time is all we can branch out from
Making sense
it’s not a talent we yet posses
We sift through the garbage and find rest in the malnutrition of our best
We where never meant to be perfect but to Love instead
to Love instead

Aaron

Train ain’t a coming

Light to the dark night street
Peaking through the fog
A mist we look for like it’s lost

We share sad stories and thrills
I find hope beyond these hills
Never lose a love over spilt milk

Bright smile like a child
But the blocks we play with a more serious mixture
Slowly Building up to a bigger picture

Time doesn’t mend the anxious ache
What we would like for this day
We find tomorrow might not bring

Letting God, I breathe from my mouth
The root of my heart the plea from the shelf
Idling, neutral, playing cards dealt
I lay them out

All it’s worth and for all it means to be
I’ll take that time I’ll take that for all that it’s worth to me
I’ll give you what I can you can keep it in your hand
Until you wish to let it go
Set it free when you find another road

AJ

Never Knew your Name

Sunsets where meant to bring joy and be seen

Stars were made for you and me

Streets where meant for shoes and to be walked

And lips where meant for smiles and talk

I’d hear of every day you spent away

And when you’re near maybe spend a day

Laughing, dreaming, and being right here

No cares not a worry no fear

This is how it’s suppose to go

Without worry an adventure a new road

Never expected to trip and fall at the feet of confusion

But that’s how it goes some times just illusion

I am me I am not them him or he

You can’t box a man up or set him free

If you think it’s all for nothing, and afraid of something

You’re probably right,

You always find what you’re looking for

Oh but I think it will be all right

And I’ll find her yet

She’ll be seeing stars and seeing who I am for me I bet

Not the past men that failed at it

Thank God he gives us what it takes

Fathering us through past mistakes

Towards real love and real faith

Persistence, discipline that starts every day with joy

Every day with joy.

Amen